"So many people I speak to seem lost or are searching for something." she said. "Even myself at times. One moment I feel content and on the right path, and then I feel there is something just outside of my grasp that I'm not quite touching on yet. It seems as if our human condition is constantly shrouded by a deep searching for that something. Yet we don't always know what it is we are truly searching for. So we hunt the internet, read books, attend courses and have discussions with like-minded people, hoping we'll find the answers there."
"The act of searching in itself is not the problem. It's how you search that either creates a void or a sense of meaning. When an individual is focused on outward searching, that is when a greater sense of loss and hopelessness sets in. Blindly attending every course, reading every book, believing everyone's ideas usually creates more confusion than anything else. Discernment, through intuition, is the key. When do you feel closer to finding what you seek?" S-H-E asked.
She didn't need to give the answer much thought, "Mostly when I'm doing what I call 'Soul Searching.'" she replied. "Though occasionally when something I've read or heard strikes some kind of an accord with me. Which then stimulates a new thought or understanding from within. But it always seems to come back to what's within."
"Exactly" S-H-E answered. "That something you seek is meaning or purpose to your life. And that can only be found within. Your senses are tuned to this inner wisdom, but one often dulls these senses from too much external stimulation. Knowledge in the form of books, courses and discussions can nudge you in a direction of Self seeking which you perhaps would not have otherwise come up with by yourself. However, these are simply direction pointers, and can be confusing, unless you constantly check within to determine your own choices and see whether these pointers are guiding you towards or away from the path of your highest good. It's like being lost on a narrow path in a dense forest and coming to a fork in the path you're walking on. Both paths, to the left and to the right, look exactly the same and you cannot see the end of the paths. What do you rely upon to chose the direction you'll take?"
"I'd choose the one that feels right." she answered.
"Good!" S-H-E said. "As long as one applies that method of choice to your search for meaning in your life, it won't lead you astray."
"You're absolutely right as always", she smiled lovingly, "Every time I make a decision based on what intuitively feels right for me, things flow into place and I feel I'm moving in the right direction in my life. However, if at times I doubt myself, and stop listening to my inner voice and listen to other's opinions or over-think things, I seem make choices that take me in the wrong direction. In fact it seems then as if I'm going backwards. But the more I practice following my own guidance, these times of 'going backwards' seem to be happening less and less."
"When you trust yourself, your inner voice, your inner guide you're on the unique path that is yours and no-one else's. Everyone needs to find their own path in order to find meaning in their lives. It's as simple, yet as complex as that. Don't doubt yourself. No matter what others say or think."
- Kim Dreyer
Artwork from my Visions of the Soul Meditation and Portal Deck
Conversations with S-H-E
Conversations with S-H-E begun early 2018 when S-H-E appeared first in a visionary dream state and then more frequently in meditations and dreams since then. 'Her' name - S-H-E - embodies the essence both SHE and HE; multidimensional states of consciousness between Spirit/Heaven/Earth; Yin-yang and All that is.