'Things feel SO charged', she exclaimed, "One minute I feel empowered, the next minute knocked flat! But the weirdest thing is that on both sides of the scales, I still somehow feel like I'm in the flow?!"
"So you think that's weird?" S-H-E smiled with great compassion.
"Um, yes?!" she replied hesitantly. Knowing now that many of the questions within these dialogs she has with S-H-E were opportunities for her to go deeper for her own answer.
S-H-E gave her ample silent space to allow the question to awaken her own realizations.
She smiled, embarrassedly, "Of course, being in the flow doesn't equate to only ever feeling happy, uplifted and empowered, does it?"
"Definitely not." S-H-E replied. "Think of the butterfly/caterpillar metamorphosis. It most definitely isn't all joy and ease. Yet the process is Nature in it's ultimate dance of life, death and rebirth and most definitely within the flow of Life, of the Cosmos, of Great Spirit."
"Of course! All growth contains within it an end - a death - of what once was. And it's seldom easy. But how does one move through these changes without being completely derailed at times?" she asked.
"Allow!" S-H-E answered quietly. "Don't resist, allow time, rest and most of all be patient with yourself. You hold deep within you generations of beliefs, patterns, habits and hurts, which require great compassion and patience in order to be released. Who you were, even minutes ago, is no longer who you are now! Think about it! It's huge!! Part of you has died and is still dying and the new you is being birthed! Think of the immense affect it's having on your physical, emotional and mental bodies. Allow yourself the time to process the grief, the confusion, the fear even. But feel the joy, elation and wonder too! You need time to resettle into who you've become, who you're becoming. And it's a slow process which will continue to happen as long as you do the work. But within that work MUST be sufficient time for rest."
She looked lovingly at S-H-E. Her eyes welled up with tears. Tears of love, of joy, of pain, of loss - all emotions, all thoughts. "Thank you, she whispered, I've never given myself permission to see my life unfolding that way. I'm too hard on myself, aren't I?"
"You can be. All humans are hard on themselves, and as a result, on others too." She exclaimed with great sympathy and love in her heart. "But times are changing. A new way of Being is being birthed. You are giving birth to a new you. You are, at once, Mother and Child, embodied together in a transformative union and birthing of Self. All Beings awakening at this time are experiencing this. It is truly a miraculous time! Celebrate it, don't fear it."
- Kim Dreyer
Artwork from my Visionary Art Gallery on my website.
Conversations with S-H-E
Conversations with S-H-E begun early 2018 when S-H-E appeared first in a visionary dream state and then more frequently in meditations and dreams since then. 'Her' name - S-H-E - embodies the essence both SHE and HE; multidimensional states of consciousness between Spirit/Heaven/Earth; Yin-yang and All that is.