She's once again staring down that all too familiar shadow. But this time she can feel something else. She doesn't sense the eyes of judge and jury upon her or the shadow.
"It feels different." she exclaims.
"How does it feel?" S-H-E asks.
"It's as if I'm only now truly seeing it in its entirety." she replies
"Can you describe it?" S-H-E encourages.
"It seems to have more form to it. It seems to be shifting. Like a dense cloud indescribably morphing in shape yet staying the same size."
"Can you see with it." S-H-E asks.
She fully trusts her time of deep inner observation with S-H-E, and gives herself over, into the shadow. As she moves through it she is surprised to see that the colour and density is not the same inside as it appears on the outside.
"You're doing well," S-H-E encourages. "Keep going into it."
She finally releases all residues of expectation, preconceived ideas and uncertainty. She simply becomes one with the shadow. It has a comfortable sense of the familiar. She raises her eye brow in query.
"It's been your constant companion throughout your life," S-H-E explains, "It will have a sense of familiarity. Continue....you're almost there."
She allows the shadow to fully engulf her. She sees it's origin. A protective armour, formed many, many lifetimes ago. A valuable aid at the time, and when correctly harnessed, but an overgrown and outgrown companion now. As she gets closer to the center she is surprised to see the form becoming less dense - lighter, brighter.
"There seems to be a light at the center." she exclaims.
S-H-E smiles lovingly. "What do you sense there?"
She takes a deep breath and feels deeply into the core of the shadow. No longer dark or repressive, she senses something light, something beautiful, something of immense importance.
"Feel into it even more." S-H-E encourages.
She gives herself fully over to the light at the core and immediately feels, knows that this light is the gift within the shadow. It's part of the many gifts and talents that make up who she is, what she has to offer in this world. She feels into the light deeper still and is surprised at first and then a deep sense of peace and unconditional love washes over her. S-H-E is waiting at the core. Always there, waiting for this moment of discovery, an awakening.
"Your deepest gifts lie at the core of your shadows", S-H-E explains. "For it is only through the experience of the shadow that the light can be fully embraced and experienced. But you need to witness the shadow in it's entirety, in order to embody the gift within the light."
She smiles at S-H-E with immense love and gratitude, as she witnesses her gift and knows she can finally share it with the world - no fear, no reservations - it's time to shine another aspect of her light into the world. - Kim Dreyer
Artwork from my Angel Inspiration Deck.
Conversations with S-H-E
Conversations with S-H-E begun early 2018 when S-H-E appeared first in a visionary dream state and then more frequently in meditations and dreams since then. 'Her' name - S-H-E - embodies the essence both SHE and HE; multidimensional states of consciousness between Spirit/Heaven/Earth; Yin-yang and All that is.